Monday, May 18, 2009

I feel numb.

I feel numb.
I feel tired.
I feel lethargic.
I feel sick.
I feel alone.
I feel pain.
I feel like I no longer care.
I feel like I'm not myself.

When I'm scolded, I feel nothing.
When I'm hurt, I feel nothing.
When things happen, I feel nothing.
Even when happy occasions arise, I feel nothing

I could be smiling.
I could be laughing.
I could be playing.
I could be in the midst of a crowd.
But I feel lonely.

When I'm at work, I feel like I'm only going to through the motions.
I want to escape.
I want to run.
I want to be free.

I hate to be tied to a place for a long time.
I hate to do things I HATE.
I hate to not being able to be myself.

Can I have a week to myself?
Can I be with myself and do some 'self-discovery'. ALONE?
Can I do what I like for once?

Family are not pressuring me,
No one is.
I just feel so numb.
At times I feel like disappearing for a week or 2.
No phones, no computers, no internet, nothing.
Just me and myself.


I don't want to be labeled as emo or depressed.
I just can't help the way I feel.

9 comments:

Johnny Ong said...

put in some music notes, u cld sell this to a music production company

Anna said...

Johnny,
Haha..This is for reading purposes only...

Hugo Lim said...

waaaaaaaaaaaa.. chim chim.. anna sudah arrive at "another level" where normal ppl like agogo cant understand

Anna said...

Hugo,
Where got chim...Just what I feel only ma...

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