HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAIN-POT...

My vain-pot sister is gonna turn 19 on the 20th...
So I'm taking this opportunity to wish her a happy birthday...

Happy Birthday to you,
Selamat Hari Jadi,
Zhu Ni Sheng Ri Kuai Le,
Zhuk Nei Sang San Fai Lok...

Happy Birthday Joanna...
I wish that you don't become a bigger vain-pot than you already are...
HAHAHA

Post Little Nyonya...

After watching Little Nyonya, I got kinda obsessed with all things Nyonya (it's actually Peranakan, Baba is the Peranakan man and Nyonya, the women). I do have a little 'Baba Nyonya' blood in me *mind you*. Now I get excited when I see kuih nyonya, baju kebaya, kamcheng and so on. I feel it's a pity that I didn't get to inherit any of the nyonya skills such as sew beaded shoes, baju kebaya and cook Peranakan dishes from the older generation. However, I do wear kain batik and baju kebaya... In the olden days, the Baba and Nyonya, although they are part Chinese, most don't speak Chinese (Mandarin). They mostly speaks Malay and Hokkien (Chinese dialects) but they hold on strongly to the Chinese culture, tradition and believes. There's 1 line in the drama that I remember clearly, "A person who doesn't know his/her pass is like a leaf who didn't know it's part of a tree". I feel strongly towards this line. It got me thinking that if we don't preserve whatever culture/tradition we have left today, it will all be gone in no time...


picture from mediacorptv.sg
L-R: Ng Hui, Xiang Yun, Jeanette Aw(Ou Xuan).
Actress in The Little Nyonya wearing baju kebaya nyonya.
They are worn with sarung (kain batik).




^ kamcheng- (means love in Hokkien)
it's use to put red and white glutinous rice balls (tang yuan).
red symbolises joy, and white symbolises purity.
It is believed that after husband and wife eats the tang yuan from the kamcheng, they will never part...


^ There's another phrase that I learned from the drama.
Read from R-L.
追远 (zhui yuan) - it means that one should remember their origins. One should not
forget their ancestors. This is place on top of the ancestral worship altar to remind the
younger Baba and Nyonya.


*Jeanette Aw as Huang JuXiang/Yamamoto YueNiang
and Qi Yu Wu as Chen Xi in The Little Nyonya*

Before I conclude this post, I'd like to include a pantun that I wrote
(inspired by The Little Nyonya).

Dari Singapura sampai ke Malaya
Kuih Nyonya gemar disantap,
Apakan nasib, apakan daya,
Ingin terbang tiada bersayap.

Perahu dimudik hulu ke hilir,
Mana nak cari si bunga melati,
Aku mencari awal ke akhir,
Mana nak curah kasih di hati.

Please make do with this for now.
Until next time...

All picture, unless stated is from google.com

The Little Nyonya...

I've heard about this drama for a while now. I don't understand what's the fuss all about, that is until I finally watched it myself.
My mum got so caught up with it dragging me along. Although I didn't watch it from the 1st episode, I fell in love with the culture, clothes and food showed in this drama. I got home yesterday around 6.30pm and my mum was watching somewhere in the 10th episode. I sat down to watch and when I looked at the clock it 12am already.

picture from google.com

This drama stars the beautiful Singaporean actress Jeanette Aw. I started to notice her when I watch Holland V sometime ago. She plays 2 characters in here as mother and daughter.
I think that this is NOT just a drama. It actually brings you closer to the Peranakan culture.
Now that I've watched it, I finally understand why The Little Nyonya is the highest rated drama in Singapore.
I see the dvd's on sale in Speedy now.
Here's the official website of The Little Nyonya.
I hope my mum doesn't continue to watch the drama when I'm at work... haha

I feel numb.

I feel numb.
I feel tired.
I feel lethargic.
I feel sick.
I feel alone.
I feel pain.
I feel like I no longer care.
I feel like I'm not myself.

When I'm scolded, I feel nothing.
When I'm hurt, I feel nothing.
When things happen, I feel nothing.
Even when happy occasions arise, I feel nothing

I could be smiling.
I could be laughing.
I could be playing.
I could be in the midst of a crowd.
But I feel lonely.

When I'm at work, I feel like I'm only going to through the motions.
I want to escape.
I want to run.
I want to be free.

I hate to be tied to a place for a long time.
I hate to do things I HATE.
I hate to not being able to be myself.

Can I have a week to myself?
Can I be with myself and do some 'self-discovery'. ALONE?
Can I do what I like for once?

Family are not pressuring me,
No one is.
I just feel so numb.
At times I feel like disappearing for a week or 2.
No phones, no computers, no internet, nothing.
Just me and myself.


I don't want to be labeled as emo or depressed.
I just can't help the way I feel.

世上只有妈妈好... A Song For Mom...

I remember I used to sing this song all the time(although I have no idea what it means) when I was younger. But since the day I know what the lyric means, i will cry whenever I hear it. No matter how I told myself not to cry, I'll still cry...
Since Sunday is Mothers' Day, here's a dedication for all mama's of the world, especially my mommy, ...

世上只有妈妈好

有妈的孩子像个宝

投进妈妈的怀抱

幸福享不了

没有妈妈最苦脑

没妈的孩子像根草

离开妈妈的怀抱

幸福哪里找

世上只有妈妈好

有妈的孩子不知道

要是他知道

梦里也会笑

世上只有妈妈好

有妈的孩子不知道

要是他知道

梦里也会笑

I hope every children in the world will appreciate everything this person named MOM did for us. I think the least we can do is say 'Thank You' to her for the meal she cooked for us, clothes she washed for us and all time of her life she spent on us. I believe a little thank you will do a better job in showing appreciation than giving her something money can buy...

Lastly,

Happy Mothers' Day to all mother,mama,mommy, ibu,emak,amma of the world....

...of 19 going on 20.

I only have exactly 12 hours left of my teenage years. After 12am tonight, I am officially 20.
I don't know why the song Que Serra Serra keeps playing in my mind....

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother what would I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que serra serra,
What ever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que serra serra...

Couldn't agreee more on "the future's not ours to see". Whatever it could be, I can only pray for the best

6 Days To Go...

I know you might be asking, 6 days to what?
Actually, it's 6 days to me loosing my identity as a teenager.
I'll be turning 20 soon.
Although I'm too keen about it, it's still coming.
So I might as well look at it in a positive way.
Erm... Since I'm not a person who celebrates birthdays, I'm just gonna be at home with my family.
I'll be really happy if I get to spend it with my family.
I thank God for keeping me save and out of harm for so many years. I pray that God will keep looking after me.

Here's a little message to my parents:
Mommy, I know that 20 years ago, you undergo a C-section in the process of giving birth to me.
I also know that I can never do enough to re-pay the love and support you gave.
Daddy, I know you work really hard to provide for us. I can't do enough to re-pay you too.
Although we don't always see eye to eye, I know everything you do is out of good will.
Thank You dad and mom for your unconditional love.

For the dearly missed...

A dedication to someone I missed dearly...

When I'm alone, I think of you,
When I'm working, I think of you,
When I'm walking, I think of you,
When I'm sleeping I still think of you.

I know it's time to let go,
I know it's time to move on,
I know it's time to start anew,
It's also time to focus on what comes ahead.

I cry when I dream of you,
I cry when I see things that used to belong to you,
I cry when people talk about you,
I cry when I realise I can no longer see you.

I try not to think of you,
I try not to see,
I try to not listen,
I try to forget but I couldn't.

You Messed With The Wrong Person...

I don't like you and I'm not afraid to show it. Please go mess with your own life and leave hers alone. I don't understand what is it with you. You are a fake and pretentious snake. You admitted that you used this person who to pay for your phone bills. You are such a user. I don't like you hanging out with her, calling her up and messaging her, I know you have people supporting you life but she has to work. Calling and messaging a person up to 3am is not what a person with brain will do. You don't have to fake a baby voice when you talk to me because I'm not a sucker who will think that it's your real voice. I've HEARD YOUR REAL VOICE. You will speak with much higher pitch and act as if you have cute bloody voice when you speak to her. Do me a favour and do yourself a favour, f*ck off and do yourself some good. I don't know what's the deal with you but I'm telling you here DON'T MESS WITH HER OR I WON'T LET YOU OFF.
I WILL GET TO THE BOTTOM OF IT.
MARK MY WORDS!!!

I've said it once, and I'm gonna say it again.
I DON'T LIKE YOU...
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Saewei is da boss...

Our very own Saewei is a boss now... She has opened up a blogshop at Bling Paradise... There's lot's of beautiful and cute dresses to offer at a very very reasonable price too.
It's her first time trying, so all you girls and guys please show her some support...

So what are you waiting for? Hop on there and check it out.